I’m losing my mind over this, I’ve spent 17 months laying on a bed all day every day. I’ve developed a hunchback posture, my muscles have completely atrophied, every part of my body aches, I have tingling and numbness in my arms and legs, and I overall feel like a 60 year old. All I can think about all day every day is when this thing will reopen, and if it will ever be healed.
I will do anything to get rid of this, it has emotionally destroyed me, I suffer greatly with anger, anxiety, depression, insomnia and so on and working is an impossibility, makes me feel as I will never lift weights again.
I will try anything, I’m so tired of this wound and I’m so angry, being an extra load on the people around me.
Enough talks about patience, hope and health..
There is no escape, Dead end of life!!
– Abbas Khan